OA Brings About Chronic Pain...And Chronic Doubt.

 I mean, shit! OA? Yeah, some fuckin fucked up cripplin pain for show! But, thah shit has detrimental psychological effects on my old Black ass too! The main one is fuckin,

Doubt! 

I doubt every muh fuckin thing I physically do now! Stand up tah walk, got tah think about it! my Wife starts messin with me, US undahstands what an old niggah writin bout, got tah think about it! Gonnah lift some shit off thah floor, got tah think about it! Walkin up or down any muh fuckin stairway, got tah think about it!...I mean before this painful shit my Black ass didn't have tah think about shit! Walk, coital activity, lifitn some light weight undah fifty pound shit, walkin up and down stairs...wasn't no muh fuckin thing and shit! 

Now...every fuckin movement...an old niggah got's tah think about thah activity and thah pain level involved in that Human normal activity from my waist down and shit!

And it's fucked up! CaUSe with everything now that requires movement below thah waist...an old niggah show thah fuck fuckin doubts! CaUSe I've got tah think about thah pain level involved takin on that non-thinkin activity that now an old OA niggah got tah think about!

Now that's fucked up!...

(Peace! More to come...)